"It's pretty racy stuff..."

http://paperhaus.typepad.com/pp/2006/07/its_pretty_racy.html

soul mates

new rule

resolutions

i come from a long legacy of artistic talent that was abandoned when life had its inevitable detours but now resolve to not squander what God has given me again. above is a headdress sketched by my aunt, who became a teacher for children with learning disabilities.

vintage espresso machine @ caffe reggio in the village

home sweet home

reimagined

     

     

a secret best not kept

forget it, jake...

family betrayals are devasting and one of the worst types of pain imaginable. hope sinead o'connor gets well soon and here is my favorite song by her:

          http://youtu.be/_Hh9E9iT24k

happy thanksgiving 2015

classic iconic sharon tate in sixties london

taking the high neck

suggestion

the most unattractive form of communication that exists, outside the movies.

tennis, anyone?

he comes back then he leaves again

https://vimeo.com/104830616

right back atcha

queen cobra

happy vintage halloween

thoughts

so it has increasingly become clearer that i indeed have been re-experiencing my middle school nightmare. have never understood the effort to be cruel, so it baffles me when i am faced with efforts of this kind. but the quote "what susie says about sally says more about susie than it does about sally," really does ring true, although it takes practice to detach from the not-so-nice opinion of others. and when i found myself sinking to the level of my adversaries i got literally sick. the lesson: other people do not define you, and when they try to impose their nasty opinions you have two options: advocate for yourself or simply walk away, especially from married men who work as lawyers and try to chase you around the office with a bunch of bored jealous girls cheering him on.

moment in time

i adore vintage photographs of old hollywood movie stars, here is one of charlie chaplin playing table tennis with silent screen queen bebe daniels

the latest

saw this ad and believe it was another one in the series of defamation- these colors have been used in an effort to label me as well as the "//." she obviously doesn't give a damn that she is degrading another woman by being a cheap exploitive sell-out nor is she concerned about perpetuating the "dumb blonde" stereotype. this is what an automatron and a total ignoramus looks like.

nora ephron, the hollywood writer and sexist pig who began my defamation, here with suggestion on the lowest level I have ever seen

and here is george clooney, greedy conformist, willingly joining in on my sexist defamation while I was healing, and unconcerned that he was also hurting his "friend" renee zellweger's career, who felt compelled to change the entire look of her face because of all the nasty drama. nice guy.

truth

 

history repeats itself- victims and foreshadowing of hollywood gangstalking

friends don't let friends participate in piglike sexual defamation from hollywood, especially when they have been devastated from being sexually harassed in the first place

    

my friend of over 15 years who of course lies to my face regarding the intention of this picture.

hollywood gang stalking and psychological warfare

this is one of the first in a series of photos that hollywood put out directed as psychological warfare to me as a target. this is lena dunham who spread false sexist defamation about me- I was referred to in orange as in "criminal" and as the character "lolita" she continually spread defamation about me throughout her show "girls" in code to her audience. a group in hollywood gathered together in this pursuit and called themselves "the avengers" it is toxic bullying and gangstalking at its worst.

the double

bow down

what falls away

the house i always wanted, just within my grasp. spent a few days on the property exploring and brought home a different form of wildflowers each week. the energy there was incredible, and i clung to it and my visits until it was sold. during a really dark period of my life, it was a very meditative experience full of joy.

and.....you wish.

this needs to stop. nothing cute or funny about it.

my "friends" happily trying to "get one over on me" aka "power plays" aka attempting to embarrass me and cheapen my image with the public. in direct alignment with the "hollywood" campaign of the same nature

speaks for itself

color of sexual abuse/ domestic violence awareness

    

so I never want to do things the "right" way again since doing it so really got me off track and forced me to see the world's ugliness in a way I wish I never had. so I seek out things that are familiar to me and places that have a good vibe, hoping that with a certain amount of effort expended towards soul care it will eventually manifest itself as life care as well.